Hello folks!
It's raining here in south of Gujarat. I am here to spend some time with my parents, not willingly though. I had to come here because I didn't have much of a choice. I left my job (again) because of the ongoing medical issues. Even though they are minor issues, they cause me major troubles while sitting in the office, working. So, i decided to take a break (again). But, as soon as I run out of money and I have to ask my father or my friend for money, I realize the importance of having a job and as usual, I have started looking for new job (again).
It is getting a little difficult this time to find a job and I have no clue what to do. So, i came back to blogger, to write and make my blog eligible for AdSense. Sounds crazy right? Well, I am a lot more crazier than one can think. Creative? 100%, but crazy, 200%. I once left my job because my manager was not soft spoken, and was a bit too bossy. Another time I left a job because my brain was too tired to write anymore. Yet another time, I left a job because I was diagnosed with Arthritis and that kept hurting my feet. I am really looking forward to a peaceful, cooperative, growth-oriented, friendly, and more GenZ workplace tbh. Am I asking for too much? I don't know.
I just know one thing, I am a good writer. I write with all my heart unlike AI. I regret making writing my profession at times, because when I write, I put my soul in it, and then your managers and seniors treat your piece of soul like a tissue paper. I don't mind revisions, but not at the cost of killing the original idea. I really enjoy it when my original idea is either appreciated or at least kept safe to be used later.
I once had a beautiful beautiful person as my team lead. She taught me everything I know today. She put this "I don't know how, but I'll figure it out" attitude in me. I don't think I'll ever be able to thank her enough, because who does so much for a learning fresher. I was almost a fresher when I met her. She loved me, or I would like to believe so. She was a feminist, a rationalist, a lawyer, and a strong, independent, woman. She made me one like herself, except the lawyer part! I learnt how to make people feel included, how to make spaces feel more energetic, and how to be your best self from her.
Now, I miss her. I still wish to work for her, but I don't understand how to convince my parents that I would be volunteering to learn and may not earn enough. Life is getting messier by the day and I don't have any idea how to deal with it. So, I decided not to deal with it. Ignore everything, keep applying to more job opportunities, try to get some income, help yourself and family if possible, pay your EMIs, just keep going without expecting more knowledge. Because, this is a cruel cruel world, where its hard to find a Khyati, who teaches! Miss you Darling.
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